 | Bored. | Feb 16, '08 9:57 AM
for everyone |
Ridin' in the drop top with the top down
Saw you switchin' lanes girl
Pull up to the red light, lookin' right
Come here, let me get your name girl
Tell me where you from, what you do, what you like
Let me pick your brain girl
girl
But let me show you 'round, let me take you out
Bet you we could we could have some fun girl
'Cause we can do it fast (fast), slow, whichever way you wanna run girl
But let me buy you drinks, better yet rings
Do it how you want it done girl
And who would've thought that you could be the one 'cause I
I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love (L-O-V-E)
Come on and lemme show you 'round
Let me take you out, bet you we could have some fun girl
'Cause we can dress it up, we can dress it down
Any way you want it done girl
Or we can stay home, talkin' on the phone
Rappin' 'til we see the sun girl
Do what I gotta do, just gotta show you that I'm the one girl
Well I'mma freak you right, each and every night
I know how to do it insane girl
'Cause I can make it hot, make it stop
Make you wanna say my name girl
Come on baby please 'cause I'm on my knees
Can't get you off my brain girl
But who would've thought that you could be the one 'cause I
I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love (L-O-V-E)
'Cause I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love (L-O-V-E)
The summer's over for the both of us
But that doesn't mean we should give up on love
You're the one I've been thinking of
And I knew the day I met you you'd be the one
I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love (L-O-V-E)
'Cause I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love (L-O-V-E)
Can you guess what am I thinking? I don't think so. Only God can hear my thoughts. But this very moment, I wish somebody can hear my thoughts. I'm not good at talking. But when I'm thinking... thoughts fly like an F15 fighter jet in my head. So fast that when I'm about to say something, they're already gone. It's really comforting to know that somebody is listening. I'm a kind of person who never lets anyone know what or how I feel. I'm good at pretending, sometimes. Right now, I'm everything. Happy, sad, lonely, lost, excited, frightened, ecstatic, funny, curious, feeling empty, patient, . I know, that's a lot. But what can I say? That's me right now. But there's one thing I'm sure of, I know that God is always listening even though most of the time, or shall I say, all time, I'm being so stubborn and just letting myself get through with everything by myself.
When will I learn to share my feelings? My thoughts? I don't know. Time will tell.
So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world
Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bassline strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can't talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don't ask me how don't ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world
 "Deadline. I've got to finish before the DEADLINE! Oh my gosh!" Most of the time we're under pressured by our deadlines at work. It's so amazing how it affects us and the people around us. We become irritated and grouchy. We're tired of hearing that we haven't finished our job and it's a matter of hours or minutes before the deadline and whallah! We're late and before we know it, we're fried! or shall I say, You're fired!
Being under pressure also happens in our personal life. As I was talking to a friend, we agreed that sometimes people look at us as if we're almost out of time of having a family. It sucks! I always hear (left and right) this question, "Why don't you have a boyfriend?" Is it a bad thing to have no boyfriend? I don't want to be under pressure by those who thought that I'm over the deadline. I don't want to make mistakes of choosing a boyfriend just to please other people. It is very critical at this point of time to make mistakes. Call me a 100% OCD person or an over idealist person, but what the heck! I don't want to end up with somebody whom I thought will end the talks of other people. Besides, if I will end up with a guy whom I really am not so inlove with, I will be the one to regret it and hurt somebody. People tend to look at me as if I'm so pitiful. Or that I'm a bitch or something because I don't have a boyfriend. Or that I I took myself off the market. No, it's just that there are things that should be considered in behalf of myself. I have to be honest, I am really frightened to think that God gave me the gift of Singleness, I hope He didn't because I really want to have my own family. So, I have given my hopes and dreams to God and prayerfully hoping that one day, His plans will unfold in front of me and live happily ever after with my Man. And I wanna have four kids (all boys, please...), the least. So, to you who put pressure on me, don't worry, just go on, I can handle myself and it gives me strength and hope that One day God will answer my prayers. Or maybe God is using you to make my hopes and dreams come true! Just watch and wait what God can do for me!
 INFIDELITY = unfaithfulness or disloyalty, or absence of religious belief. Are we all guilty of INFIDELITY? I guess in some point of our lives we did. Or maybe we are still guilty of it... I believe that in our lives, we need to believe in something Great, Powerful and Supernatural. besides, that's why we are here. I talked to a new friend and she said that she don't believe in God. I feel for her because she is a very kind lady and very smart. She believe that all around us is God and that we are here to make good deeds to make this a better place. I kind of like the second one. But you know, believing in God, whatever your religion is because God looks into our hearts, is what makes us complete. I guess, what I'm trying to say is, that now that that we know and Believe in God, it is our burden to not be disloyal and unfaithful to God. Because Gos is always there waiting for us to come to Him and ask Him for His forgiveness and blessings. 
| 3Some | Sep 11, '07 11:06 PM
for everyone |
 Threesome relationship. What'd you think? I think it will be great! You know, 3 in 1 fantastic, solid relationship! They said "It takes two to tango", yes it's true. When a couple is dancing, they dance with passion, with joy in their hearts, and as if they're the only poeple around. It's like knowing someone and sharing your passion, love, and relationship even though words are not spoken. Colette Dowling, a famous author once said: "Relationships are like a dance, with visible energy racing back and forth between partners. Some relationships are slow, dark dance of death." Well, that's when you want 2some relationship. How about 3some? Hmmm... When I say 3some, 2 living souls are truely in-love and 1 supernatural being is involved, so much so that love flows from the 1 that bestows all His love for human beings. Never will energy be scarce but energy will always be visible and will never slow dance, the dark dance of death. Now, do you want a 3some relationship? I do. But I have to find that 1 living soul that God has intended for me to be with. We'll get there.
 My Love Affair, my Amourousness, my Romance, my Ardor, my Desire, my Relationship, my Involvement, my Fling, my Nostalgia, my Fascination, my Excitement, my Love Story, my Weepie, my Enthusiasm, my Daydream, my Tissue of Lies, my Fiction, my Tall Tale, my Sensation..... for something. Are you puzzled? Confused? Let me explain further. Love Affair - is an intense liking for something or someone. Have you felt it? You know? You really like someone and you are sure that you will give your everything, your all for that guy? I have. Maybe we all did. Isn't it strange that we never see what's wrong with him and what's wrong in our mind? I mean, why on earth would I give my all to him? Yeah, yeah, yeah... It's the intense liking for him. So intense that your mind is not functioning right. You just care what you feel. Even though it feels wrong. But you know, there is someone who wants to have a Love Affair to us. We usually thinks that it's just our conscience. But in fact, it's the Holy Spirit whispering to us, guiding us, reminding, leading us to the right path. But what do we do? We neglect it. We pretend that we don't hear the voice. We take it for granted. But you see, We need to have an intense relationship with the Holy Spirit because when Jesus Christ ascended to heaven, He said He will leave behind the Holy Spirit to be with us always, and He is. He's always with us even though sometimes we don't feel or hear His voice. It's time for us to give our all, our everything to Him that we may journey in the right path of salvation even though it will be hard but He guarantees it that with Him, with Jesus in our side, we will overcome all troubles and we will receive our reward in heaven. Let's have a Love Affair and make it real by commiting our lives to Jesus and be married to Him and we will surely receive eternal life.
| vOiD | Sep 9, '07 10:01 PM
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 VOID, in other words, not legally valid, vacant, not containing anything, pointless, empty space, feeling of loss, gap... any word you use will mean one thing, emptiness. Most famous people say that there is something missing in their lives. True. Isabelle Eberhardt, a Russian-born traveller once said... "I am full of the sorrow that goes with changes in surroundings, those successive stages of annihilation that slowly lead to the great and final void." Some people in this world look at things mistakenly, and think that what they do not understand must be the void. This is not true void. It is bewilderment. Some christians are bewildered at what they feel and what they know. Maybe some of us religously go to church every saturday, give our tithes & offerings, read the Bible morning and evening, involve in the ministry, and etc... but somehow, feel empty. It's not emptiness, we are confused of what we know and feel. Satan is doing his best in bewildering christians, making wrong seem right, and that makes us confused. I guess people who haven't heard of Jesus and feels empty inside, that is true void. Many people in this ugly world needs to hear about Jesus and we, christians, have the reponsibility of bringing the good new to them in any way we can. Let us fill the emptiness and void in their hearts and praise God together.
 I sent this letter to someone in the past and I want to share it with you. And to that someone, I hope you can recognize this letter. Too bad, we didn't end up together. But hey! Just enjoy reading and and be in love again. Here it goes...
Letter Date: March 15, 2004 via Yahoo! E-Mail
In my eyes, I can see you.
In my mind, I think of you.
In my mouth, I whisper your name.
In my soul, I am lost without you.
In my hands, I feel you.
In my dreams, I am with you.
In my prayers, I always pray for your safety.
In my life, you're the one that gives me reason to live.
In my heart, I LOVE YOU.
In my faith in God, I know that you will be the other source of strength.
In my future, I hope and pray that we will grow old together.
In my service to God, I can see myself beside you finishing God's work.
My all, I give to you, because I LOVE YOU.
| dEnIaL | Sep 6, '07 10:38 PM
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 dEnIaL, disavowal, or in psychology "refusal to face unpleasant facts". Am I in denial? I don't know. Maybe I am denying that I am in denial right now or maybe not. I just don't know. How do I know if I'm in a state of denial? What are unpleasant facts that is in front of my eyes that I should say they're unpleasant but my mind overlooks those facts. It is very hard to accept facts that are unpleasant especially if it involves our character, personality, state of emotion, saneness, religion, relationship, and status. I guess people are prone to deny themselves (and others) when they are at stake. But mostly, we refuse to see what's ahead of us. We are afraid that we might fail or lose somebody. We just want everything to be in perfect. We want to be seen as sane and jolly person. But deep inside, it's rotten. There is something that should be done inside. And what or who could be that someone that can change the rotteness inside? Only Jesus Christ. He's the only way. Like He said "I am the way, the truth and the life" which in any way we see it, Jesus is the ONLY WAY to our retribution and salvation from all the rotteness of this world. But, we should NEVER, NEVER EVER DENY OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST because if we do, we are in BIG trouble. So, I guess I have to find out what's rotten inside me and stop denying and accept the fact that there are unpleasant facts in front of me and pray that it will be pleasant in my eyes and in the Lord's eyes. Ok, I'll stop denying that I don't need somebody right now, but it scares the hell out me to accpet that fact! Is that means that I am so desperate? Oh no! I hope not! I guess everybody needs someone to be there whatever happens. Right? It's just that, i don't want to sound so ridiculous. But anyhow, now that I've accepted the fact that I need somebody, what now? Pray and believe in Jesus. That's all I can do right now. In Jesus' time, He will answer my prayers.
| wAnT | Sep 5, '07 8:15 PM
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 What do I want in life? I mean, what I REALLY want in life. Is it a car? A house and lot maybe? A diamond ring? (why not?) A prince charming? Millions of pounds? An I-pod? A jet? A Prada or Alexander McQueen Couture? A Patek Phillip watch? Hmmm... It's hard to tell what I want. I want 'em all. But the reality is, "Our necessities never equal our wants." Money never made a man happy yet, nor will it? The more a man has, the more he wants. Instead of filling a vacuum, it makes one. We must learn to want only one thng in life, " To search God's Kingdom." By then, everything we didn't want (that others are dying to get) will be given to us and we have the opportunity to share it to others.
Let us want to search God's Kingdom and you will be surprised what God has in store for all of us.
 hange is to become different. Then why in the world would I want to be different even if it doesn't matter to other people? Here's why...
"He who rejects change is the architect of decay. The only human institution which rejects progress is the cemetery." -Harold Wilson-
I am alive! That's why I am a living soul. God breathe into my nostrils and made me a living soul. Some people say that the only permanent thing in this world is change. Which is a 100% true. Everything changes (except the dead). One famous personality says...
"Change alon is eternal, perpetual, immortal." -Arthur Schopenhauer-
But, are we changing for the better? You know the drill... Change you bad attitude... Change your bad habit... Change your stinking socks... Change your bad sleeping habit... Change your bad lifestyle... Change you diet... Change your bad etc... Then what?! Did anyone notice that I've changed for the better?! Maybe somebody did. Or maybe no one did. Is it important to be noticed when we change? Yes, if we are KSP and our motive is for our own benefit and self fulfilment. No, because we want God to see us change for Him. The true motive of changing for the better is dedicated to our God. To our one true God alone. Because God can change us and God gave us life.
"Life belongs to the living, and he who lives must be prepared for changes."
-Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe maybe wrong about life belonging to the living but rather life belongs to God. But he definitely said it right, and I agree, that "He who live must be prepared for changes."
Are we ready to change? I guess I should be ready 'coz you'll never know when God would answer our BIG prayers, and WHAM!!! The Tsunami of change has arrived without notice. If we are praying like what Jabez prayed "Please bless me indeed!" or "Enlarge my territory" then we must be ready for the BIG change because God will surely answer our prayers like He answered Jabez's prayer. Are you ready?!
READY! GET SET! DIE! hehehe... just kidding... GO! FOR THE BIG CHANGE!!!
 Misery. Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! Misery is a serious lack of contentment or happiness. Misery, in other words, sadness, depression, desolation, gloom, wretchedness, melancholy, despair, grief, sorrow, indigence, agony, misfortune, suffering, deprivation, destitution, poverty, distress.... these words may or may not fascinate you, but I am mesmerized by it (today). It is so sad to think that our world is so miserable that anything on it becomes miserable. Look at the crimes around us, the poverty, war, diseases, fame and fortune, suffering, all people are so miserable in any way. Why is that? Because this world is so old, dark, and sinful. God will make a new world (Not the New World Movement, dah?!) to replace this dump. I say, we are all in misery because we live in this world of sin. I am so fed up by the things around us. Its like, there's no good in it. But there is, there is something that is good about being miserable.
A quote from William Shakespeare's Measure For Measure says:
"The miserable have no other medicine, But only hope. "
Hope. Hmmm.... Hope is to have a wish to get or do something or for something to happen or be true, especially something that seems possible or likely. It is also a feeling that something desirable is likely to happen. A chance that something desirable will happen or be possible. Something that somebody wants to have or do or wants to happen or be true. Somebody or something that seems likely to bring success or relief. A feeling of trust. Who gives us hope? God gave us hope. Hope of being stripped off of misery for the rest of God's time (which is eternity). We only need to hold on to that hope and believe in something that we cannot see but very visible in our eyes. Hold on sister! Hold on brother! Fasten your seatbelt for the miserable ride of your life on earth and grasp God's hope to keep us going through this desperate world.
So, misearable, you say? Yeah! So miserable of waiting for the New Earth to come!
 What's the use of dreaming,
When sometimes dream can't come true?
Why do I keep on believing
That someday I'll be with you?
What's the use of wishing,
When my wishes never reaches you?
And I keep asking myself,
Why do I love you?
What's the use of waiting,
When waiting makes me blue?
Without even knowing
If you feel the way I do.
What's the use of dreaming,
When dreams can't come true?
At least in my dreams
My love will see you through.
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